June 2

I've debated all day whether or not I was going to tell you all what this date is to us.  Since it's actually been a pretty good day I will go ahead.  June 2 is our little girl's due date.  One of my friends who, like me, has had multiple miscarriages said to me once that it's not right that those of us who have lost babies have two days of remembrance.  The one we found out they were lost, and the day which was to be their due date.  I agree, it's not right! But on the other hand I'm actually doing really well with today.  There were a few minutes this morning that I teared up, but overall it's been a good day. I'm sure there will be other June 2nd's in my future that aren't as easy, but this first one I gave completely to God.  It is His will that today was not as tough as I imagined it might be a few months ago.  So for that, I thank Him.  I also thank Him that our little girl gets to celebrate what might have been her first birthday with a party in heaven!

Here is what's going on adoption-wise.  Yesterday I sent off our fingerprints, $36, and our request for FBI back-ground checks.  We have heard that it can take as long at six weeks to get these back, so prayers are appreciated for speedy delivery!  Today I had my TB test read, and it's negative so we will be able to get the last of our medical statements back by Monday hopefully.  With this we are one step closer to having our home-study complete.

Next agenda items: Garage sale June 18th!!!  Donations for the fundraising sale are greatly appreciated!  If you need them picked up let us know and we will figure it out.

And Now For Something Completely Different

So when I started this blog I was pregnant and about to announce it to the world...which we did about a week later. Then about three weeks after that (at 16 weeks) we found out we were having a girl! Not too many days after that we found out we had lost our little girl. It has now been over three months and we have learned many things, no the least of which is that Blue Cross-Blue Shield is a crummy insurance company! {For anyone who cares, I will one day go into all the details, for I am an open book.}

So here we are. In the world of Something Completely Different. April 2011 is rapidly approaching and it appears that God's plans for the Whiteakers in 2011 don't seem to include a baby. We hope this is a case of "not right now." However we have also recently learned of an organization called Reece's Rainbow. RR is an agency dedicated to the adoption of Down Syndrome children from international countries. We are in the very early stages of learning about adoption in general (this was not what WE had planned) and international adoption of a DS child in specific. (Without a doubt now what WE had planned.) Prayers are being lifted up that God's hand is in this and if it is His will for us we will absolutely follow.

What we know now: 1. Adoption is expensive. In the past I have turned up my nose at people who fundraise for adoption but I now realize that this may be something I have to swallow my pride and do. If not for myself then for others who want to adopt through RR. 2. One of my favorite people in the world has DS and she lights up my world and Wes's. 3. God is faithful to his servants!

Jessica

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you, and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."